Every Day

I'm trying to remember that every day may not be good, but there is something good in every day.

What bummer of a week its been. As if our little guy wasn't ready to finally belong and have a home and family forever, and us know that he is ours and cannot be taken away. We were scheduled to complete our adoption next week, and looking forward to knowing that he would be a part of our family forever, it was going to be a BIG relief that we were looking forward to, a celebration with no more worries. For him to no longer live life as a "foster child".  He has already been through so much in his short life - lets give him the family, love and stability that he wants. Everyone wants to belong and were the family that he has, knows, loves and wants to be with. No more social workers, crazy rules, and the not knowing. Well we found out that our court date for next week to complete the adoption had to be cancelled (for the second time) and that our case would have to wait again and be put on hold for quite some time. How many times can someone appeal on a court ruling that was very clear, and concise. Apparently one can continue to appeal till it gets to the higher supremacy court. Looks like we are stuck in another paperwork trail and in the mercy of the courts and just hope that God has his hands on the right people and we don't have to wait too many more months to get through all of this. (I could say a lot more, but am trying to hold back some particular words and statements of frustration that might not be so appropriate for this blog, and I just have to remind myself to have faith when I need it most.

As if that wasn't enough, Ive been worried about lexie all week with abdominal pain that  continues to get worse. 2 doctor visits, an ultrasound, an ER visit and some other tests and we still don't know. She's on pain pills right now and we are waiting for her scheduled ct scan that's next week. If she takes a turn for the worse, we have to get her down to children's. So we sit by her side trying to comfort her, knowing that were just masking the pain and hoping that it will go away on its own, it brings tears to my eyes not being able to help her and knowing that we have to wait till next week, and all I can say when she cries is "I know it hurts, and I'm sorry" and see if she needs more pain meds.

If you know me then you know I like to be happy and positive, so Ill end with Cam as she is playing in a basketball tournament this weekend. We are proud of her for her first year in AAU, its been a new experience and a little different than LYS, But I am thankful and proud of her. Hopefully I will have a chance to make it down to see one of her games this weekend. Good Luck Cam!